80th post - My mistakes... and my blessings...

80th post.

Should be celebrating... but I made a mistake today...

... thankfully, God intervened and fixed it before it could become horrid.

So, thanks buddy! I owe ya another one! ^_^

Here's the story:

See, I was unable to read my message from Tamara, and so I decided to scour our little collab channel. It was fun... And I decided to draw her... so I got a video of my beloved and started to draw.

Unfortunately, that's when it began. I know my dearly beloved is in a group collab titled 'the charming society' and that's cool!
Get to see her every friday! ^_^
But it also appears my love is in another one! :D
So as I watch her videos, I realise one name keeps popping up.

'Patrick'

Who is this Patrick? I know she talks to a Patrick on twitter quite a bit. Same one?
Curious, I do a bit of exploring, and much to my unexplained horror, I realise these two are close.

Hearts? 'I love you'? O.O
I felt suddenly heart broken.
'It can't be true! I'#m being over dramatic!' I growl to myself, but Satan got a hold of me and twisted my mind. Twisted it real good.

I was almost ready to cry. But I didn't. I let it turn into rage instead. Writing an email of 'Please explain!' I let it vent through a poem.
I was in so much pain... it was excruciating...
I couldn't wait until tomorrow, so I asked this 'Patrick' about it and waited for a response. And waited. And waited.

After trying to contact a fellow classmate for reassurance... and failing... I finally decided to leave. I did.

On my way to drama, I stuck my headphones in and blasted Christian music. The only way to release properly.
Turns out, all the way, I talked with God. I literally walked with Him. He helped me out... cheered me up and made me happier.

So I spent the day having forgotten the whole thing. And when I finally remembered, I received confirmation that Tamara and Patrick were simply like brother and sister to each other.

And so now, I await a response to my apology, praying that I have been forgiven.

^_^

Confidence? Smexiness? I am these things!?

Oh mah gorsh...

Last night (Monday night) the true me was revealed. At first, I was scared she wouldn't like it... but she did...

In fact, it was then I discovered the new her too...

Man, we are no longer the same two people who met just under a year ago!

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When I was dating a girl we'll name 'Anna', it took me just about 3 months to muster up the courage to kiss her cheek. And this was after she had kissed mine.

I'm just not the sexy kind... I'm into the whole 'physical connection' and I love holding hands and such, but I was always scared when it came to kissing.

But last night, I wrote out a roleplay situation.

It started very simple. Run away from that stalker, and sit side by side on a log.

Pick a flower and put in her hair.

And then it started the spice up.

Kiss her shoulder. Kiss her cheek. Kiss her lips/

And then we had no control.

She liked every post, even though I would read back and say,
'What the heck am I writing here!?'

I soon decided enough was enough when both our jeans lay strewn over the log and our shirts were gone, revealing her leaning over me.

I wasn't gonna turn this to full blown intercourse!

She agreed that it was best to stop, but oooh my...

I think we were both turned on by that story...

and I think deep down, we both want it to come true... ♥

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Oh yeh... and you...

yes you! You short one with dark hair!

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At least it wasn't a rape situation!

... end of!

xD

Hostility

I hate hostility... especially when it's LESS dramatic than in the movies.

Like when I make a good friend in College with very similar beliefs to my own...

Someone who won't rant at me for being Christian and stick it in my face for certain rules I live by.

I finally, FINALLY have someone I can relate to, and her stupid boy friend pushes down on me.

He despises me... he hates me... he acts so hostile towards me...

If he were given the chance, he would like to take my nose off...

-_-"

To be honest, I don't see what she see's in him...

BUT what I do know is that she loves him.. and that's all that matters. :)

ENGLAND 1 - 1 AMERICA

England just drew with America 1 - 1

But that's great!

The means the English and the American's are EVENLY matched
they're perfect for each other!

^_^

Anyone? Anyone at all...

Writing writing writing...

I love writing... I want to continue writing... and I want to do it now...

So dont you just HATE it when you're stuck in your writing!?

GAARRHH!!!

Luckily, I'm not...

But I HAVE had rumours (true... but not secret!) spread around about me.

And now, people keep ASKING me and stalking my facebook to see if it's true!

AARRGGHH!!! ¬_¬

Am miffed... and THAT'S why I'm not writing...

I need to cheer up first... anyone gonna help me do that?

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anyone?

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Seriously... any one can jump up now... no?


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fine.